Well I had a new job but I was totally jerked around and missinformed about the amount of hours I could pick up thus I had to not take it. So back to square one. I submitted an applacation to subway. I feel like such an uneducated dolt. But I gots to make some money. I really REALLY want to go to the beach but its freakin monday and i can't drive nor do i have a car. *sigh* I seriously have to get this job.

it occurs to me that i really like: dirty, raw, smoke filled, slow sounding, sexy jazz, blues and rock. I can't get enough of it. It makes me want to buy more dark wash skinny jeans, and leather jackets. and start smoking again. The sound puts an ache in my heart. The phrase pulling the heartstrings has never made more sense to me. It fills me with a passionate and yet very dirty craving feeling. This is the song thats bringing this feeling back the surface: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RtwQp5tAec# so good. Jack White has yet to form a band i haven't liked. Also the picture there. Makes me want to have dirty sweaty slow whiskey/ciggarete flavored sex.

Urgh

this totally sucks. job searching is horrible. No one is really hiring. The applications I fill out I know go right in the bin or as they call it "on file" I picked a damn fine time to need a job. I suppose if I could drive (and had a car) my search radius would much bigger. Then again my dissapointment radius would also be much bigger. I am doing a lot on the phone. I know thats probley the wrong way to go about it but I am going to Maine on friday. Horrible attitude yes but what good will it do me if I find a job tommorow and then I have to leave. This sucks.