Childish

seriously? why have been ignoring the awesomeness that is Billy Childish for so long?! i suck at life and should no longer be able to listen to music for committing such an indiscretion.

Golf Today

i have my first ever golf lesson today and i am terrified. well that's a bit of an overstatement but I am so insanely shy and nervous before i do something and then absolutely fine when i finally start doing it. like making phones calls, getting on airplanes, golf lessons, etc. its stupid and childish but that's how it goes. Plus i know its going to be UNBELIEVABLY uncomfortable temperature wise. or rather humidity wise. its 66 degrees and cloudy and a little foggy thus its 99% humidity! New England girl has some trouble with that. my hair is going to go to shit pretty pretty fast. thank god its in a ponytail! so lets hope i don't completely suck. I'm not at all nervous about golfing with my mother in law. i can't wait for that. its trying to not make a complete ass of myself in front of the pro. *sigh* wish me luck. and hope the humidity at least lest me make it through a few holes.

you could say it’s my instinct yes, I still have one
there’s no time to second guess it
yes there are things that I’m still so afraid
of but my courage is roaring like the sound of the suncause
it’s vain about its mane and will reveal them to no one
and I’m an animal, you’re an animal too
pick up that rock, drink from that lake
I do my best but I’m made of mistakes
yes, there are still things I’m still quite sure of
I love you this hour, this hour today and heaven will smell like the airport
but I may never get there to prove it
so let’s not waste our time thinking how that ain’t fair
I’m an animal, you’re an animal too you’re an animal too

-Neko Case-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khs_PofcsbQ

I am really getting a kick out of this taste of indain summer. i know it won't last and that is very sad. I don't know if I'll be able to handle winter. Going to Florida for thanksgiving does actually make me miss the cold but if its mild when we get there like in the 70's then I'm in trouble. I have to update this thing more.

Well I had a new job but I was totally jerked around and missinformed about the amount of hours I could pick up thus I had to not take it. So back to square one. I submitted an applacation to subway. I feel like such an uneducated dolt. But I gots to make some money. I really REALLY want to go to the beach but its freakin monday and i can't drive nor do i have a car. *sigh* I seriously have to get this job.

it occurs to me that i really like: dirty, raw, smoke filled, slow sounding, sexy jazz, blues and rock. I can't get enough of it. It makes me want to buy more dark wash skinny jeans, and leather jackets. and start smoking again. The sound puts an ache in my heart. The phrase pulling the heartstrings has never made more sense to me. It fills me with a passionate and yet very dirty craving feeling. This is the song thats bringing this feeling back the surface: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RtwQp5tAec# so good. Jack White has yet to form a band i haven't liked. Also the picture there. Makes me want to have dirty sweaty slow whiskey/ciggarete flavored sex.

Urgh

this totally sucks. job searching is horrible. No one is really hiring. The applications I fill out I know go right in the bin or as they call it "on file" I picked a damn fine time to need a job. I suppose if I could drive (and had a car) my search radius would much bigger. Then again my dissapointment radius would also be much bigger. I am doing a lot on the phone. I know thats probley the wrong way to go about it but I am going to Maine on friday. Horrible attitude yes but what good will it do me if I find a job tommorow and then I have to leave. This sucks.

Matt

Current Male Celebrity Crush: Matthew Lewis (aka Neville Longbottom)

Zooey

My number one female celebrity crush: Zooey Deschanel.

The Dress

I want this dress so badly. or at least something like it. I have become a great lover of sun dresses or garden party dresses. This has deffantly not been the summer for sun dresses.

I am going for a bike ride later today. This is going to be the 1st one in like 7 years. Parking lot practice before I leave, that is for damn sure.
On another note, I need to remeber to always have my camera with me. When I don't have it things happen that should have been photographed. Then again when I do bring it, the batteries die. The tangled web of technology I weave.

First Entry

I needed a real blog. I refuse to delete my livejournal. Time for something a bit more adult.